Thursday, March 29, 2007

Transformed

I don’t know if it was the Pluto based eclipse we just had, or if it was the shift into the fiery and forceful sign of Aries that did it, but I’ve finally burned through through the worst of those nicotine cravings. It’s taken nearly 3 months to feel ‘normal’ again (but for anyone reading this who is either thinking of giving up, or has just given up – don’t be put off by the length of time - it doesn’t mean I had 3 whole months with NO relief from cravings, it just felt that way a lot of the time).

Only thing is I still can’t go near alcohol, as that was my strongest trigger for a smoke. Give me a gorgeous glass of red wine and a Marlboro Light or twenty and I was in heaven with the door shut, so it has to be avoidance till I’m a bit more used to being smoke-free.

For me the astrology was about north node in Pisces, currently making its way through my sixth house of health and Stuff To Sort. North node sign ruler Neptune (smoke) is of course, in opposition to Saturn (limits), but Pluto seems to have had a lot to do with it all too. Pluto’s been hanging around the IC/4th cusp point of my chart for about a year now, and I feel I’ve done more along the theme of transformation than ever before – including the blog – how do you like the new look?

There was definitely some kind of crescendo of cravings reached around the last eclipse, as if it was the final death throes or something. And then recently, I suddenly realised I couldn’t hear that teeth-grindingly irritating nicotine voice calling anymore, and it was spring; outside the sky was clear and blue, and the daffodils bright yellow like the sun. Maybe it was the equinox, the passing of a season into a whole new energy, I don’t know, but I do know it was worth the dark days to get here.

6 comments:

April said...

Whee! A snazzy new look for your blog, *and* a picture!

Good for you, Barbara, for holding on through the Plutonian rebirthing process and coming through nicotine free. You're an inspiration to all of us who are trying to kick unhealthy habits!

chrispito said...

Hey Barbara! I just found your blog! Funny what you mention of the smoking. I woke up on Sunday morning with the dead-set conviction I need to go on an alcohol diet. No more booze for a month.
Is this a Plutonian thing? My ASC is 28 degrees Sag...hmmm...(I'm a newbie at astrology)

Great blog! And keep up the good work not smoking, I'll be rooting for you as I avoid my local!

Barbara said...

Thanks April! :-) :-)

Chrispito, thanks for finding my blog :-) Pluto is around and about 28 degrees at the moment, and yes a 'dead-set conviction' would definately spell Pluto! But because you mentioned a month specifically, I would also wonder if there's a lunar link also somehow.

Madeline Hill said...

I have Midheaven at 28 Sag and am also experienceing transformations. Well, explosions is more like it? A total revision of diet--my family became vegans, also lost a friend because she works for our family business and an awful blow up has caused an irreparable tear in the fabric of life.. also,I QUIT the family business after years of REALLY NEEDING to--the FULL MOON LIBRA blog is one I am relating to and reading over and over. How BAD DOES IT get, this PLUTO THING? I have counseled people through it, but....

Barbara said...

Wow Madeline, that's Pluto for you. Even though I haven't actually experienced the giving birth process, I always imagine the Pluto process is as near as damn it to being in labour. One, two three, breeeeaaathe...

tumblewords said...

Way to go, Barbara! It's been twelve-plus years for me and I still feel good about the ability to reign in that habit. Makes my other vices seem less undoable. Not that I have any, but...
Incidentally, the site transformation is wonderful, spring-like, honest, clean and clear. I like it.